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I do believe that it is the possession of this other´personalitybut not
so strong a one as minethat has in some few others given rise to belief in
personal reincarnation experiences。 It is very plausible to such people�察�a
most convincing hypothesis。 When they have visions of scenes they have
never seen in the flesh�察�memories of acts and events dating back in time�察�
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the simplest explanation is that they have lived before。
But they make the mistake of ignoring their own duality。 They do not
recognize their other´personality。 They think it is their own personality�察�
that they have only one personality�察 �and from such a premise they can
conclude only that they have lived previous lives。
But they are wrong。 It is not reincarnation。 I have visions of myself
roaming through the forests of the Younger World�察�and yet it is not myself
that I see but one that is only remotely a part of me�察�as my father and my
grandfather are parts of me less remote。 This other´self of mine is an
ancestor�察 �a progenitor of my progenitors in the early line of my race�察�
himself the progeny of a line that long before his time developed fingers
and toes and climbed up into the trees。
I must again�察�at the risk of boring�察�repeat that I am�察�in this one thing�察�to
be considered a freak。 Not alone do I possess racial memory to an
enormous extent�察 �but I possess the memories of one particular and far´
removed progenitor。 And yet�察�while this is most unusual�察�there is nothing
over´remarkable about it。
Follow my reasoning。 An instinct is a racial memory。 Very good。
Then you and I and all of us receive these memories from our fathers and
mothers�察 �as they received them from their fathers and mothers。
Therefore there must be a medium whereby these memories are
transmitted from generation to generation。 This medium is what
Weismann terms the ;germplasm。; It carries the memories of the whole
evolution of the race。 These memories are dim and confused�察�and many
of them are lost。 But some strains of germplasm carry an excessive
freightage of memoriesare�察 �to be scientific�察 �more atavistic than other
strains�察�and such a strain is mine。 I am a freak of heredity�察�an atavistic
nightmarecall me what you will�察 �but here I am�察 �real and alive�察 �eating
three hearty meals a day�察�and what are you going to do about it�拭�
And now�察�before I take up my tale�察�I want to anticipate the doubting
Thomases of psychology�察 �who are prone to scoff�察 �and who would
otherwise surely say that the coherence of my dreams is due to overstudy
and the subconscious projection of my knowledge of evolution into my
dreams。 In the first place�察 �I have never been a zealous student。 I
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graduated last of my class。 I cared more for athletics�察 �andthere is no
reason I should not confess itmore for billiards。
Further�察 �I had no knowledge of evolution until I was at college�察�
whereas in my childhood and youth I had already lived in my dreams all
the details of that other�察 �long´ago life。 I will say�察 �however�察 �that these
details were mixed and incoherent until I came to know the science of
evolution。 Evolution was the key。 It gave the explanation�察�gave sanity
to the pranks of this atavistic brain of mine that�察 �modern and normal�察�
harked back to a past so remote as to be contemporaneous with the raw
beginnings of mankind。
For in this past I know of�察�man�察�as we to´day know him�察�did not exist。
It was in the period of his becoming that I must have lived and had my
being。
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CHAPTER III
The commonest dream of my early childhood was something like this�此�
It seemed that I was very small and that I lay curled up in a sort of nest of
twigs and boughs。 Sometimes I was lying on my back。 In this position it
seemed that I spent many hours�察 �watching the play of sunlight on the
foliage and the stirring of the leaves by the wind。 Often the nest itself
moved back and forth when the wind was strong。
But always�察 �while so lying in the nest�察 �I was mastered as of
tremendous space beneath me。 I never saw it�察 �I never peered over the
edge of the nest to see�察�but I KNEW and feared that space that lurked just
beneath me and that ever threatened me like a maw of some all´devouring
monster。
This dream�察 �in which I was quiescent and which was more like a
condition than an experience of action�察�I dreamed very often in my early
childhood。 But suddenly�察 �there would rush into the very midst of it
strange forms and ferocious happenings�察�the thunder and crashing of storm�察�
or unfamiliar landscapes such as in my wake´a´day life I had never seen。
The result was confusion and nightmare。 I could comprehend nothing of
it。 There was no logic of sequence。
You see�察 �I did not dream consecutively。 One moment I was a wee
babe of the Younger World lying in my tree nest�察�the next moment I was a
grown man of the Younger World locked in combat with the hideous Red´
Eye�察�and the next moment I was creeping carefully down to the water´hole
in the heat of the day。 Events�察 �years apart in their occurrence in the
Younger World�察�occurred with me within the space of several minutes�察�or
seconds。
It was all a jumble�察�but this jumble I shall not inflict upon you。 It was
not until I was a young man and had dreamed many thousand times�察�that
everything straightened out and became clear and plain。 Then it was that
I got the clew of time�察�and was able to piece together events and actions in
their proper order。 Thus was I able to reconstruct the vanished Younger
World as it was at the time I lived in itor at the time my other´self lived
in it。 The distinction does not matter�察�for I�察�too�察�the modern man�察�have
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