tg.stone of tears-第77部分

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　Denna’s　voice　was　soft　and　calm。　‘I’m　sorry；　Kahlan；　I　don’t　know。　I　didn’t　keep　a　tally。　But　he　was　with　me　a　long　time。　Longer　than　any　other　mate。　I　did　it　almost　every　night。　The　things　I　did；　I　did　to　no　other；　because　none　had　the　strength　Richard　did；　the　strength　of　his　love　for　you。　The　others　would　have　died　the　first　time。　He　fought　me；　for　a　long　time。　I　did　it　enough；　that’s　all。　Enough。’
　
　‘Enough！　Enough　for　what！’
　
　‘Enough　to　drive　a　part　of　him　mad。’
　
　‘He’s　not　mad！　He’s　not！　He’s　not！’
　
　Denna　watched　as　Kahlan　shook　with　pain　and　rage。　‘Kahlan；　listen　to　me。　Anyone　else　would　have　been　broken　by　what　I　did。　Richard　saved　himself　by　partitioning　his　mind。　He　locked　the　core　of　himself　away　where　I　couldn’t　get　to　it；　where　the　magic　couldn’t　get　to　it。　He　used　the　gift　to　do　that。　It　saved　the　core　of　himself　from　the　insanity。　But　in　the　darkest　corners　of　his　mind　lurks　madness。　I　used　his　magic　against　him；　to　drive　him　insane。　He　couldn’t　protect　all　of　himself　from　the　things　I　did。
　
　‘I　told　you　what　I　did　so　you　could　see　the　truth　of　his　madness。　He　had　to　sacrifice　that　part　to　save　the　rest。　To　save　the　rest　for　you。　I　wish　I　could　have　done　the　same　when　it　was　done　to　me。’
　
　Kahlan　lifted　Richard’s　hand　in　hers；　holding　the　back　of　it　to　her　heart。　‘How　could　you　do　those　things？’　she　cried。　‘Oh；　my　poor　Richard。　How　could　you？　How　could　you　do　that　to　anyone？’
　
　‘We　all　have　our　own　little　bits　of　insanity。　Some　more　than　others。　My　life　was　a　darkness　of　it。’
　
　‘Then　how　could　you！　How　could　you；　knowing　what　it　was　like！’
　
　Denna　watched　her　from　under　her　eyebrows。　‘You　have　done　terrible　things　too。　You　have　used　your　power　to　hurt　people。’
　
　‘But　they　were　people　guilty　of　horrible　crimes！’
　
　‘All　of　them？’　she　asked　quietly。　‘Every　one？’
　
　Kahlan’s　breath　caught　with　the　memory　of　using　her　power　against　Brophy。
　
　‘No；’　she　whispered。　‘But　I　didn’t　do　it　because　I　wanted　to。　I　had　to。　It　is　my　job。　Who　I　am。　What　I　am。’
　
　‘But　you　did　it。　And　what　of　Demmin　Nass？’
　
　The　words　cut　through　her。　Her　mind　flooded　with　the　memory；　the　sweet　memory；　of　castrating　that　beast　of　a　man。　She　sank　forward　with　a　wail。　‘Oh；　dear　spirits；　am　I　no　better　than　you？’
　
　‘We　all　do　what　we　must；　whatever　the　reasons。’　Her　glowing；　diaphanous　fingers　lifted　Kahlan’s　chin。　‘I　do　not　tell　you　these　things　to　hurt　you；　Kahlan。　The　telling　of　them　wounds　me　more　than　you　can　know。　I　tell　you　because　I　want　to　save　Richard；　so　that　he　doesn’t　die　before　his　rightful　time；　and　so　that　the　Keeper　does　not　escape。’
　
　Kahlan　clutched　Richard’s　hand　tighter　to　her　breast　as　she　wept。　‘I’m　sorry；　Denna　。。。　but　I　don’t　have　it　in　me　to　forgive　you。　I　know　Richard　does　。。。　but　I　do　not。　I　hate　you。’
　
　‘I　would　not　expect　you　to　forgive　me。　I　only　wish　you　to　understand　the　truth　of　what　I　am　telling　you；　the　truth　of　Richard’s　madness。’
　
　‘Why！　To　what　purpose！’
　
　‘So　that　you　will　understand　what　you　must　do。　Wearing　a　collar　is　the　core　of　that　insanity。　It　symbolizes　everything　I　did　to　him。　In　his　mind；　magic　is　madness；　torture。　A　collar　is　madness；　torture。　Insanity。
　
　The　thought　of　having　a　collar　around　his　neck　brings　that　madness　out　of　the　darkest　corners　of　his　being；　brings　out　his　deepest　fears。　He　is　not　exaggerating　when　he　says　he　would　rather　die　than　put　a　collar　around　his　neck。　He　will　not　do　it　to　save　himself。　If　he　doesn’t；　he　will　die。　There　is　only　one　thing　in　the　world　that　will　make　him　put　on　the　collar。’
　
　Kahlan’s　head　snapped　up。　Her　eyes　were　wide。　‘You　want　me　to　ask　him　to　put　a　collar　around　his　neck。’　She　went　weak　with　dread。　‘You　would　have　me　do　that　to　him？　After　what　you　have　told　me？’
　
　Denna　nodded。　‘He　will　do　it　if　you　tell　him　to。　He　will　not　do　it　for　any　other　reason。　None。’
　
　Richard’s　limp　arm　slipped　from　Kahlan’s　shaking　hands。　Her　fingers　covered　her　mouth。　Denna　was　right。　After　what　she　knew　now；　what　she　had　heard；　she　knew　Denna　was　right。
　
　She　knew　now　what　it　had　been　that　she　had　seen　in　Richard’s　eyes　when　he　looked　at　the　collar　the　Sisters　held　out　to　him。　It　had　been　madness。　Richard　would　never　put　a　collar　around　his　neck　of　his　own　accord。　Never。　She　knew　that　now。　Really　knew　it。
　
　A　small　cry　escaped　her　throat。　‘If　I　make　him　put　on　the　collar；　he　will　think　I　have　betrayed　him。　In　his　madness；　he　will　think　I　want　to　hurt　him。’　Pain　welled　up　inside　her；　and　she　started　to　cry　all　over　again。　‘He　will　hate　me。’
　
　Denna’s　voice　came　in　a　soft　whisper。　‘I　am　sorry；　Kahlan。　That　could　be　the　truth　of　it。　We　can’t　know　for　sure；　but　he　may　very　well　see　it　that　way。　I　don’t　know　how　much　the　madness　will　take　over　when　he　knows　he　must　put　on　the　collar；　when　you　tell　him　he　must。　But　he　loves　you　more　than　life　itself；　and　will　put　it　on　for　no　other　reason。’
　
　‘Denna；　I　don’t　know　if　I　could　do　that　to　him。　Not　after　what　you　have　told　me。’
　
　‘You　must；　or　he　will　die。　If　you　love　him　enough；　you　must　do　this。　You　must　be　strong　enough　in　your　love　for　him　to　force　him　to　do　it；　knowing　the　pain　it　will　bring　him。　You　may　have　to　act　as　I　would　have　acted；　to　frighten　him　enough　to　do　as　you　say。　You　may　have　to　bring　the　madness　to　full　flower；　make　him　think　the　way　he　did　when　he　was　with　me；　when　he　would　have　done　anything　he　was　told。
　
　‘You　may　lose　his　love。　He　may　hate　you　forever。　But　if　you　really　love　him；　you　will　see　that　you　are　the　only　one　who　can　help　him；　the　only　one　who　can　save　him。’
　
　Kahlan　snatched　desperately　for　a　way　out。　‘But　in　the　morning；　we　were　going　to　go　to　Zedd；　a　wizard；　who　might　be　able　to　help　him　control　the　gift。　Richard　thinks　Zedd　will　know　what　to　do；　that　he　will　be　able　to　help　him。’
　
　‘That　may　be　true。　I’m　sorry；　Kahlan；　I　don’t　know　the　answer　to　that。　It　may　work。　But　I　do　know　that　the　Sisters　of　the　Light　have　the　power　to　save　him。　If　they　e；　and　he　turns　them　down　for　the　third　time；　he　will　forever　lose　the　opportunity　to　get　their　help。　If　it　turns　out　that　this　wizard　can’t　help　Richard；　then　he　will　die。　His　time　is　short；　days　at　most。
　
　‘Do　you　understand　what　that　means；　Kahlan？　He　won’t　just　die；　the　Keeper　will　have　him；　have　everyone。　Richard　is　the　only　one　who　can　close　the　veil。’
　
　‘How？　Do　you　know　how　he　can　close　it？’
　
　‘I’m　sorry；　I　don’t。　I　know　only　that　it　must　be　torn　the　rest　of　the　way　from　this　side。　That　is　why　the　Keeper　has　agents　on　this　side。　That　is　why　Darken　Rahl　came　here。　Somehow；　Richard　is　the　only　one　who　can　stop　them；　and　also　the　only　one　with　the　power　to　repair　what　has　been　rent。
　
　‘If　he　turns　the　Sisters　down；　and　this　wizard　can’t　help　him；　then　he　dies；　soon；　and　it　will　be　as　if　the　mark　itself　took　him　to　the　Keeper。　If　he　can　get　to　this　wizard　before　he　turns　the　Sisters　down　for　the　third　time；　he　can　learn　whether　he　can　be　helped　without　them　。。。　without　the　collar。　But　if　they　e　before　he　can　get　to　Zedd；　I　must　have　your　promise　you　will　do　what　must　be