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was a question which he had sometimes asked himself�察�without having the
materials to construct a reply。
With imagination thus touched and heart unfilled�察�this man had been
bewitched from the very first moment by Emilia。 He kept it to himself�察�
and heard in silence the criticisms made at the club´windows。 To those
perpetual jokes about marriage�察 �which are showered with such graceful
courtesy about the path of widowers�察�he had no reply�察�or at most would
only admit that he needed some elegant woman to preside over his
establishment�察�and that he had better take her young�察�as having habits less
fixed。 But in his secret soul he treasured every tone of this girl's voice�察�
every glance of her eye�察 �and would have kept in a casket of gold and
diamonds the little fragrant glove she once let fall。 He envied the penniless
and brainless boys�察�who�察�with ready gallantry�察�pushed by him to escort her
to her carriage�察�and he lay awake at night to form into words the answer he
ought to have made�察 �when she threw at him some careless phrase�察 �and
gave him the opportunity to blunder。
And she�察�meanwhile�察�unconscious of his passion�察�went by him in her
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beauty�察 �and caught him in the net she never threw。 Emilia was always
piquant�察�because she was indifferent�察�she had never made an effort in her
life�察�and she had no respect for persons。 She was capable of marrying for
money�察�perhaps�察�but the sacrifice must all be completed in a single vow。
She would not tutor nor control herself for the purpose。 Hand and heart
must be duly transferred�察�she supposed�察�whenever the time was up�察�but till
then she must be free。
This with her was not art�察�but necessity�察�yet the most accomplished art
could have devised nothing so effectual to hold her lover。 His strong sense
had always protected him from the tricks of matchmaking mammas and
their guileless maids。 Had Emilia made one effort to please him�察 �once
concealed a dislike�察�once affected a preference�察�the spell might have been
broken。 Had she been his slave�察�he might have become a very unyielding
or a very heedless despot。 Making him her slave�察�she kept him at the very
height of bliss。 This king of railways and purchaser of statesmen�察�this man
who made or wrecked the fortunes of others by his whim�察�was absolutely
governed by a reckless�察�passionate�察�inexperienced�察�ignorant girl。
And this passion was made all the stronger by being a good deal
confined to his own breast。 Somehow it was very hard for him to talk
sentiment to Emilia�察 �he instinctively saw she disliked it�察 �and indeed he
liked her for not approving the stiff phrases which were all he could
command。 Nor could he find any relief of mind in talking with others
about her。 It enraged him to be clapped on the back and congratulated by
his compeers�察�and he stopped their coarse jokes�察�often rudely enough。 As
for the young men at the club�察�he could not bear to hear them mention his
darling's name�察 �however courteously。 He knew well enough that for
them the betrothal had neither dignity nor purity�察�that they held it to be as
much a matter of bargain and sale as their worst amours。 He would far
rather have talked to the theological professors whose salaries he paid�察�for
he saw that they had a sort of grave�察�formal tradition of the sacredness of
marriage。 And he had a right to claim that to him it was sacred�察�at least as
yet�察�all the ideal side of his nature was suddenly developed�察�he walked in a
dream�察�he even read Tennyson。
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Sometimes he talked a little to his future brother´in´law�察 �Harry�察�
assuming�察�as lovers are wont�察�that brothers see sisters on their ideal side。
This was quite true of Harry and Hope�察 �but not at all true as regarded
Emilia。 She seemed to him simply a beautiful and ungoverned girl
whom he could not respect�察�and whom he therefore found it very hard to
idealize。 Therefore he heard with a sort of sadness the outpourings of
generous devotion from John Lambert。
;I don't know how it is�察 �Henry�察─ �the merchant would gravely say�察 �I
can't get rightly used to it�察�that I feel so strange。 Honestly�察�now�察�I feel as if
I was beginning life over again。 It ain't a selfish feeling�察�so I know there's
some good in it。 I used to be selfish enough�察�but I ain't so to her。 You may
not think it�察�but if it would make her happy�察�I believe I could lie down and
let her carriage roll over me。 By ´�察�I would build her a palace to live in�察�
and keep the lodge at the gate myself�察�just to see her pass by。 That is�察�if she
was to live in it alone by herself。 I couldn't stand sharing her。 It must be
me or nobody。;
Probably there was no male acquaintance of the parties�察 �however
hardened�察 �to whom these fine flights would have seemed more utterly
preposterous than to the immediate friend and prospective bridesmaid�察�
Miss Blanche Ingleside。 To that young lady�察 �trained sedulously by a
devoted mother�察�life was really a serious thing。 It meant the full rigor of
the marriage market�察 �tempered only by dancing and new dresses。 There
was a stern sense of duty beneath all her robing and disrobing�察 �she
conscientiously did what was expected of her�察 �and took her little
amusements meanwhile。 It was supposed that most of the purchasers in
the market preferred slang and bare shoulders�察 �and so she favored them
with plenty of both。 It was merely the law of supply and demand。 Had
John Lambert once hinted that he would accept her in decent black�察�she
would have gone to the next ball as a Sister of Charity�察�but where was the
need of it�察�when she and her mother both knew that�察�had she appeared as
the Veiled Prophet of Khorassan�察 �she would not have won him�拭 �So her
only resource was a cheerful acquiescence in Emilia's luck�察 �and a
judicious propitiation of the accepted favorite。
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