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;None�察 �except in weakness�察─ �said Philip。 ;A stronger nature may
escape it。 Good God� �do I not know how Petrarch must have felt�拭�What
sorrow life brings� �Suppose a man hopelessly separated from one whom
he passionately loves。 Then�察�as he looks up at the starry sky�察�something
says to him�此 �'You can bear all these agonies of privation�察�loss of life�察�loss
of love��what are they�拭�If the tie between you is what you thought�察�neither
life nor death�察�neither folly nor sin�察�can keep her forever from you。' Would
that one could always feel so� �But I am weak。 Then comes impulse�察�it
thirsts for some immediate gratification�察 �I yield�察 �and plunge into any
happiness since I cannot obtain her。 Then comes quiet again�察�with the stars�察�
and I bitterly reproach myself for needing anything more than that
stainless ideal。 And so�察�I fancy�察�did Petrarch。;
Philip was getting into a dangerous mood with his sentimentalism。 No
lawful passion can ever be so bewildering or ecstatic as an unlawful one。
For that which is right has all the powers of the universe on its side�察�and
can afford to wait�察�but the wrong�察�having all those vast forces against it�察�
must hurry to its fulfilment�察�reserve nothing�察�concentrate all its ecstasies
upon to´day。 Malbone�察 �greedy of emotion�察 �was drinking to the dregs a
passion that could have no to´morrow。
Sympathetic persons are apt to assume that every refined emotion
must be ennobling。 This is not true of men like Malbone�察�voluptuaries of
the heart。 He ordinarily got up a passion very much as Lord Russell got
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up an appetite��he�察�of Spence's Anecdotes�察�who went out hunting for that
sole purpose�察�and left the chase when the sensation came。 Malbone did not
leave his more spiritual chase so soon��it made him too happy。
Sometimes�察�indeed�察�when he had thus caught his emotion�察�it caught him in
return�察�and for a few moments made him almost unhappy。 This he liked
best of all�察 �he nursed the delicious pain�察 �knowing that it would die out
soon enough�察�there was no need of hurrying it to a close。 At least�察�there
had never been need for such solicitude before。
Except for his genius for keeping his own counsel�察�every acquaintance
of Malbone's would have divined the meaning of these reveries。 As it was�察�
he was called whimsical and sentimental�察�but he was a man of sufficiently
assured position to have whims of his own�察�and could even treat himself to
an emotion or so�察 �if he saw fit。 Besides�察 �he talked well to anybody on
anything�察�and was admitted to exhibit�察�for a man of literary tastes�察�a good
deal of sense。 If he had engaged himself to a handsome schoolmistress�察�it
was his fancy�察�and he could afford it。 Moreover she was well connected�察�
and had an air。 And what more natural than that he should stand at the
club´window and watch�察�when his young half´sister ��that was to be�� drove
by with John Lambert�拭 �So every afternoon he saw them pass in a vehicle
of lofty description�察 �with two wretched appendages in dark blue
broadcloth�察 �who sat with their backs turned to their masters�察 �kept their
arms folded�察 �and nearly rolled off at every corner。 Hope would have
dreaded the close neighborhood of those Irish ears�察�she would rather have
ridden even in an omnibus�察�could she and Philip have taken all the seats。
But then Hope seldom cared to drive on the Avenue at all�察 �except as a
means of reaching the ocean�察 �whereas with most people it appears the
appointed means to escape from that spectacle。 And as for the footmen�察�
there was nothing in the conversation worth their hearing or repeating�察�and
their presence was a relief to Emilia�察 �for who knew but Mr。 Lambert
himself might end in growing sentimental�拭 �Yet she did not find him
always equally tedious。 Their drives had some variety。 For instance�察�he
sometimes gave her some lovely present before they set forth�察 �and she
could feel that�察�if his lips did not yield diamonds and rubies�察�his pockets
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did。 Sometimes he conversed about money and investments�察 �which she
rather liked�察 �this was his strong and commanding point�察 �he explained
things quite clearly�察�and they found�察�with mutual surprise�察�that she also had
a shrewd little brain for those matters�察�if she would but take the trouble to
think about them。 Sometimes he insisted on being tender�察 �and even this
was not so bad as she expected�察�at least for a few minutes at a time�察�she
rather enjoyed having her hand pressed so seriously�察 �and his studied
phrases amused her。 It was only when he wished the conversation to be
brilliant and intellectual�察 �that he became intolerable�察 �then she must
entertain him�察�must get up little repartees�察�must tell him lively anecdotes�察�
which he swallowed as a dog bolts a morsel�察�being at once ready for the
next。 He never made a comment�察 �of course�察 �but at the height of his
enjoyment he gave a quick�察�short�察�stupid laugh�察�that so jarred upon her ears�察�
she would have liked to be struck deaf rather than hear it again。
At these times she thought of Malbone�察 �how gifted he was�察 �how
inexhaustible�察�how agreeable�察�with a faculty for happiness that would have
been almost provoking had it not been contagious。 Then she looked from
her airy perch and smiled at him at the club´window�察�where he stood in the
most negligent of attitudes�察�and with every faculty strained in observation。
A moment and she was gone。
Then all was gone�察�and a mob of queens might have blocked the way�察�
without his caring to discuss their genealogies�察�even with old General Le
Breton�察 �who had spent his best ��or his worst�� years abroad�察 �and was
supposed to have been confidential adviser to most of the crowned heads
of Europe。
For the first time in his life Malbone found himself in the grasp of a
passion too strong to be delightful。 For the first time his own heart
frightened him。 He had sometimes feared that it was growing harder�察�but
now he discovered that it was not hard enough。
He knew it was not merely mercenary motives that had made Emilia
accept John Lambert�察�
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