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saint�察�like thee�察�ought to fly through the air。 Leap� �the angels are there to
support thee。 Leap�察�then� ─�
Paphnutius replied
;The will of God be done�察�on earth as it is in heaven。;
Extending his long arms like the ragged wings of a huge sick bird�察�he
was about to throw himself down�察 �when�察 �suddenly�察 �a hideous mocking
laugh rang in his ears。 Terrified�察�he asked
;Who laughs thus�拭─�
;Ah�拭�ah� ─�screamed the voice�察 �we are yet but at the beginning of our
friendship�察�thou wilt some day be better acquainted with me。 My friend�察�it
was I who caused thee to ascend here�察�and I ought to be satisfied at the
docility with which thou hast accomplished my wishes。 Paphnutius�察�I am
pleased with thee。;
Paphnutius murmured�察�in a voice stifled by fear
;Avaunt�察�avaunt� �I know thee now�察�thou art he who carried Jesus to a
pinnacle of the temple�察�and showed him all the kingdoms of this world。;
He fell�察�affrighted�察�on the stone。
;Why did I not know this sooner�拭─�he thought。 ;More wretched than
the blind�察�deaf�察�and paralysed who trust in me�察�I have lost all knowledge of
things supernatural�察�and am more depraved than the maniacs who eat earth
and approach dead bodies。 I can no longer distinguish between the
clamours of hell and the voices of heaven。 I have lost even the intuition of
the new´born child�察�who cries when its nurse's breast is taken from it�察�of
the dog that scents out its master's footsteps�察�of the plant that turns towards
the sun。 I am the laughing´stock of the devils。 So�察�then�察�it is Satan who led
me here。 When he elevated me on this pedestal�察 �lust and pride mounted
with me。 It is not the magnitude of my temptations which terrifies me。
Anthony�察�on his mountain�察 �suffers the same。 I wish that all their swords
may pierce my flesh�察�before the eyes of the angels。 I have even learned to
like my sufferings。 But God does not speak to me�察 �and His silence
astonishes me。 He has left meand I had but Him to look to。 He leaves me
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alone in the horror of His absence。 He flies from me。 I will follow after
Him。 This stone burns my feet。 Let me leave quickly�察�and come up with
God。;
With that he seized the ladder which stood against the column�察�put his
feet on it�察�and having descended a rung�察�found himself face to face with
the monster's head�察�she smiled strangely。 He was certain then that what he
had taken for the site of his rest and glory�察 �was but the diabolical
instrument of his trouble and damnation。 He hastily descended and
touched the soil。 His feet had forgotten their use�察 �and he reeled。 But�察�
feeling on him the shadow of the cursed column�察�he forced himself to run。
All slept。 He traversed�察�without being seen�察�the great square surrounded by
wine´shops�察 �inns�察 �and caravanserias�察 �and threw himself into a by´street
which led towards the Libyan Hills。 A dog pursued him�察 �barking�察 �and
stopped only at the edge of the desert。 Paphnutius went through a country
where there was no road but the trail of wild beasts。 Leaving behind him
the huts abandoned by the coiners�察�he continued all night and all day his
solitary flight。
At last�察�almost ready to expire with hunger�察�thirst�察�and fatigue�察�and not
knowing if God was still far from him�察 �he came to a silent city which
extended from right to left�察�and stretched away till it was lost in the blue
horizon。 The buildings�察�which were widely separated and like each other�察�
resembled pyramids cut off at half their height。 They were tombs。 The
doors were broken�察�and in the shadow of the chambers could be seen the
gleaming eyes of hyaenas and wolves who brought forth their young there�察�
whilst the dead bodies lay on the threshold�察 �despoiled by robbers�察 �and
gnawed by the wild beasts。 Having passed through this funeral city�察�
Paphnutius fell exhausted before a tomb which stood near a spring
surrounded by palm trees。 This tomb was much ornamented�察�and�察�as there
was no door to it�察�he saw inside it a painted chamber�察�in which serpents
bred。
;Here�察─�he sighed�察 �is the abode I have chosen�察�the tabernacle of my
repentance and penitence。;
He dragged himself to it�察 �drove out the reptiles with his feet�察 �and
remained prostrate on the stone floor for eighteen hours�察 �at the end of
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which time he went to the spring�察 �and drank out of his hand。 Then he
plucked some dates and some stalks of lotus�察�the seeds of which he ate。
Thinking this kind of life was good�察�he made it the rule of his existence。
From morning to night he never lifted his forehead from the stone。
One day�察�whilst he was thus prostrated�察�he heard a voice which said
;Look at these images�察�that thou mayest learn。;
Then�察�raising his head�察�he saw�察�on the walls of the chamber�察�paintings
which represented lively and domestic scenes。 They were of very old work�察�
and marvellously lifelike。 There were cooks who blew the fire�察�with their
cheeks all puffed out�察�others plucked geese�察�or cooked quarters of sheep in
stew´pans。 A little farther�察 �a hunter carried on his shoulders a gazelle
pierced with arrows。 In one place�察 �peasants were sowing�察 �reaping�察 �or
gathering。 In another�察 �women danced to the sounds of viols�察 �flutes�察 �and
harp。 A young girl played the theorbo。 The lotus flower shone in her hair�察�
which was neatly braided。 Her transparent dress let the pure forms of her
body be seen。 Her bosom and mouth were perfect。 The face was turned in
profile�察�and the beautiful eye looked straight before her。 The whole figure
was exquisite。 Paphnutius having examined it�察 �lowered his eyes�察 �and
replied to the voice
;Why dost thou command me to look at these images�拭�No doubt they
represent the terrestrial life of the idolater whose body rests here�察 �under
my feet�察�at the bottom of a well�察�in a coffin of black basalt。 They recall the
life of a dead man�察�and are�察�despite their bright colours�察�the shadows of a
shadow。 The life of a dead man� �O vanity� ─�
;He is dead�察�but he lived�察─�replied the voice�察 �and thou wilt die�察�and
wilt not have lived。;
From that day�察�Paphnutius had not a moment's rest。 The voice spoke to
him incessantly。 The girl with the theorbo looke
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